Last time I wrote was in February 14, 2013, valentines day! Now it's July and our little baby girl, who arrived on February 26, 2013 and it is now 4.5 months. finally we can embrace the dramatic changed we experience. We are a happy little family! I personally have to admit that the first three months was hectic and the hardest thing I have experience do far! Still a happy and look forward ;)
Recap of my life changing event:
February our little Elisabeth was born, she was 3.55kg and 48cm. Happy parents who are clueless about what to come. Also my husband got a new job back in Sweden, so we decided to move back! Yes you guys read it correctly moving with a new born from San Francisco, CA the U.S. to Sweden, Stockholm. I have to admit it was not easy. And silly us who are new parent think that we can do it all. What a silly mistake of overload stress and lots of sleepless night. They obviously go together once you get a baby! So forget about sleeping and I did for a couples of months. I actually learn to accept it.
For all the mothers out there I just want to say that there are many things that happen to us at the same time and some seem like we could not talk about it because there are still some shame that we did not expect it to happen to us. Yes we heard of postpartum depression, but what about baby blues, it might not be as serious, but I personally was not even prepared for that happening to me! All the emotion and hormones which we couldn't control! I was not hungry and lost my appetite for two weeks. Seriously this happen to a woman as me who love to eat. Basically I learn that up to 80% of mothers gets baby blues, but somehow this subject was not brought up at parenting class! I just read it on a piece of paper which I got from The hospital, a paragraph which explain what I was feeling. Two weeks of not wanted to eat actually created more stress both emotionally and physically. Especially when we have to take care of our little one who need US the most during that time period! Parenting class failure!!! Nothing actually prepare you for a baby because we have to learn ourselves, yes we went to breastfeeding class and all the others classes necessary and got all the consultant help and tips. But everything was the biggest BS and money milking process that is how It feels after (4 months later). I will say this stick to your mother instinct and there are no super mom and we don't have to get everything done at once. In time things will get better! And yes it is true the first 3 months was tough, but hang on it gets better and you will enjoy being parents.
Normally there are more fight because of all stress and leak of sleep and all the worries! Happy face seem to be lost even though this is one of the most happiest time in our life. Don't feel guilty if you are feeling down and doubt it is normal. Give yourself some breathing room and a needed break. The journey of the experience will make you stronger and you will learn to understand each other both as parent and individual. It is not easy when changed happen in life. Remember life is a journey!
March was one of the most difficult moment in my life! A new born and I was clueless! I remember how I could feel the panic of not knowing what to do and I feel like crying all the time and helpless (thanks to baby blues syndrome). Thanks to all of my lovely friends back in San Fran ( you guys know who you are) and my big sister support I overcame the anxiety and started to let go of the fear.
April 9,2013 we boarded a flight to Sweden and our journey is continuing in Stockholm, Kungsholmen. Having a 6 weeks old and moving in into a new apartment at the same time is not so brilliant idea! Thanks to my lovely sister who help us and of course it was an extra relief that she understood how it is to have a baby! She alway encourage us that we did a good job! Even when we as new parent had a meltdown lol! Advise: never say no to help or never feel bad about asking for help!
I am grateful and I love our life, me and My husband Andreas are greatfull for everything we have, our health, love and future opportunity we love our baby girl and is happy that she is healthy and strong!
Live to Love life as everyday is precious no matter obstical.
- Lim Orn posted via BlogPress from my iPhone